Suddenly have this mix feeling. Dont know why.
Feel like i'm not prepared to go back to study yet.
Still enjoying and slacking for the last day before school starts tmr.
Looking back at this holiday, i think i have practically wasted it larh.
I kept saying i'm busy i'm busy. Actually, i dont even know what i'm busy with.
I didnt spend time on my projects.
I didnt spend time with my close friends.
Neither did i spend time on things that needs my attention.
WHAT EXACTLY AM I BUSY WITH? Hais.

I would like to apologise to those people i have neglected due to my lousy time management. There are actually alot of things going through my mind right now. Too much that i dont know what to write down. Really wanner say sorry to people whom i always tell them i'm busy and i dont have time to go out with them. Sorry people. ): ): ):

Now, i'm super worried about my projects and school work.
Hais. Due dates are coming nearer and nearer,
yet i still have 2 projects on hand that i haven started on!
Because of these reasons, i dont know where i shall start from. Feeling so lost now.
So many things needs my attention, but i have neglected them all.
I felt that i have spent too much time on track activities.
First, it was the bonding camp.
Then, it was trainings.
Then, it was outings with the trackers.
Lastly, the student leader seminar.
And 2 weeks just past like that.
Am i wasting my time on areas which i should not? Very confused.

I guess i have to make these promises to myself.
I have to learn how to manage my time better.
I have to keep in mind that studies is my first priority no matter what.
I have to focus on completing projects first before i enjoy.
I have to forgo trainings if i really have to because of projects.
I have to spend more time with my close friends.

Please give me some time to adjust back to the life i had before the holiday. I know everything has to get back on track. I just need some time, thats all i ask for. And i hope everything is still not too late. (:

Two days of student leader seminar has finally ended.
Only two words can be used to describe it. TOTAL BOREDNESS! ):
OMG. Lindi still tell me its very fun. I dont even experience the fun part can.
First day was theory held in school. Talk and talk. No fun at all. Food was bad too.
And guess what? We had like 2 teabreaks and a lunch. Treat us like pig sial. hahaha.
Second day was at sentosa for some bonding activities. The external vendor just simply sucks.
They dont even know how to organise activities that suits us. I feel that we're being treated like secondary school students playing those kind of 'bonding' games. Somemore the organisers are all so old. We gort a HUGE age gap larh. HAHAHA! The worst thing is the buffet food for both days are almost the same. OMG! Can you imagine eating the same food for 2 days? OhMyGod. Anyway, there was actually one particular activity that i really enjoyed. Its the bolly-wood station where we have to imitate the boll-wood dances' step after watching the video. Was DAMN funny. That was the best part of the day i can say. Everyone of us kept laughing and playing around. I actually made some friends there too. My group mates were fun people, esp the crazy leader we had from magnum force. Guess, afterall everyone did at least enjoyed abit larh uh. Our group was the most outstanding group for the day. WOAH! All thanks to karen yeah. HEHE! And the prize we won is just a $3 Co-Op voucher each. How pathetic.

Now that holiday is coming to and end, i have to get back to the study mood AGAIN! Damn. I still have so many projects on hand. Due dates are coming. Stress is getting back to me AGAIN. Shit. Afterall, i think i did enjoy a bit during this holiday larh. Although the camp sucks, i still manage to enjoy the other activities like the k-box session and the BBQ with the trackers, the trainings back in school and the boring seminar at sentosa. HAHAHA!

So now, its time to set aside time for PROJECTS! Need to rush them all out. BUSY BUSY days are BACK AGIAN. ): ): ):

Today is just another normal day. I guess i'm feeling better already. hee. Woke up in the morning and headed back to school for training.But the turn up rate of the people is like less than 15 ppl.That was really pathetic. hahah. Due to the rain, we're unable to carry out the workout that coach gave us. End up we did something which many of us has not been doing for quite some time. That is, Mr lim's circuit. Jump, skip and run! hehe. Kinda miss doing it sometimes. As i said, today there was not many ppl who came down for training. Therefore, rachel decided to join us for workout instead of doing gym. YEAH! After so long, we finally had a chance to train together again. I really miss those where we train and gossip together during workout time. Aye rachel, dont give up okay. I know how you feel. Since you've already made your choice, you have to train hard for high jump alright. I'm very sure hard work does pay off! I have faith in you girl. (: (: (:

Anyway yupp, whenever we are together, we'll always have catch up sessions! hahs. Today was no exception. Caught up and joked ard trying to annoy that richie poo. wahahas. FUN! But, richie doesnt like it when me and rachel are together, becos we always bully and say things that make him feel like killing us. LOL. But heyy, it is still very fun afterall what! Everybody laugh, everybody enjoy. Isnt it good? hahas. So, conclude, training today was very effective i think. Becos i can feel the tiredness even though its just some circuits, gym and campus run. Wa, shiok! We headed for lunch at market. And this is the very FIRST time matthew and rachel join us together. hmmm. Next time should have more okay rachel. hehe. After reaching home, i actually plan to watch the 3.30 show. Who knows i fall asleep on the sofa larh! omg. And I kinda like today i dunno why. Just feel so relax and nothing to worry about. If only every other day can be the same like today. I know its impossible, that is why i say if only. HAHA.

Dont want to think about how tmr will be be like. For sure it wont be as relaxing as today. Becos i have to go back to school for EC project. This is the first project meet up we have ever since the school holiday. Now, i have 4 projects on hand, almost all left untouched. I'm so worried, but there's nothing much i can do. Things are really pilling up, too much to handle at the same time. I hope i wont break down soon becos 24 hours a day is just not enough.

I'm back from camp like 2 days ago.
But i still haven recover from the tiredness. hais.
The camp just sucks to the core.
Maybe its becos i'm part of the committee organising it.So i din really get the chance to bond with the juniors and interact with them.I think i'm just gonna write down everything i felt about this camp. Need to vent my anger.

Initially i was so looking forward to this camp. But who knows, during the camp, everything turned out to be so arghhh! Thinking about it just make me fume with madness. It was suppose to be a combined camp with the Tri-Elite ppl. But, somehow i feel like, the only people who are actually working and managing the camp are ppl from track. If this is the case, we might as well we have our own camp right?!The overall in-charge of the camp have been in the ops-room for whole damn 3 days! Some ppl were simply slacking and enjoying themselves in the room, enjoying the air-con while the rest of us worked so hard to try to manage the ppl. Like WTH man. I really couldnt take it when it comes to the 2nd night.
So, i just poured it all out to rachel and richie. Guess i did felt a little better after that.
Its not that i want to say anything bad or what larh. I just feel very unhappy about all that happened during the camp. Throughout the whole camp, i felt that i've been doing stuffs non-stop. You wont know how tired it is unless you experience it.
Having to do all the cleaning up and SAI-KUNG that was left behind is really very horrible. Seriously i felt so damn angry and pissed off with those ppl who did not carry out their duties. Overall, i could say that i'm very very disappointed with the whole camp.It was not a wonderful camp at all. Too many things happened during the 3 days. The campers might have enjoyed it, but for me, i really din enjoy at all. It was really a LOUSY camp! Damn. In fact, i was suffering like hell for the 3 days.
I just feel very UNFAIR! ARGHHHHHHHH! i guess i shouldnt talk about the camp anymore. Anyway its over now. No point thinking about it. Even though all the hardwork are not appreciated. But, its alright larh.

Today we went out to celebrate lindi's birthday at orchard. Had crystal jade for lunch and the amount we had to pay for has kinda made me broke larh. LOL. Really hope she enjoyed her day with us. Although we din do anything much, but, we sincerely hope she had a great birthday this year. HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY lindi! smiles. (:

Hokays. These few days i think i really feel very down. I dunno why. Maybe its becos of the camp and all the things that happened during this whole week. I totally have no mood to do anything. Tried to talk to rachel about all the unhappy stuffs that bothers me, but, still i feel very sians like no energy to do stuff like that. Is it becos i'm too tired and drained out from the camp? Hais. Here, i just want to say a BIG THANKYOU to rachel. Thanks for listening to me, telling me ur opinion. I really appreciate it alot! Glad to have you as my friend. You've always been there to cheer me up and listen to me. I love you gurl! (:










HAHAHAS! These really cheered me up alot! It made me smiled.
THANKS rachel! <3

hahahas. I haven been blogging for almost a month i realise. Too busy too busy. Maybe i'll just shut down this blog since i'm too busy to update it anyway.
Hokays, I'm done with 4 papers and now, one more LAST one to go. After this, i shall ENJOY! hahas.
Talking about the CT. I tell you uh, IEF really killed me man. I think i'll make appointment soon for the retest. The MCQs and T/F is damn tough. Unexplainable. Somemore the english so chim larh. omg. I guess this sem i'll probably do very badly. The modules are so damn BORING! hahas.

After CT, many many things are queuing up.
First, Track & Field + Tri-Elite combined bonding camp!
Then, Trainings + PROJECTS ( 4 in total )!
Then, Some leadership course!
Then, Project Nutz planning, meetings and more and more!
Then, POLITE cross-campus planning, meeting and more and more!
Then, very fast will be EXAMS!
Then, SOON will be Attachment!

And there goes all my time. I hardly have any time to do what i want to do.
The worst thing is i dont even have any holidays for the damn 2 months.
Have to go for that irritating attachment. Wonder where i'll be posted to man.
Just hope it wont be at tuas or at some ulu ulu east side please. hahas.

Alright, i need to go mug hard for marketing. So ciaos pple! will be back when i feel like blogging or when i'm FREE. (: