another new week of routine work is gonna start again.
AHHHHHHHHHH! Monday blues. ):

this week's weekend is a boring one
didn't go out except for training and lunch
did nothing interesting at all
eat, sleep, online and working on my report
how no life it is right, i know!

i just have no mood to go out lar
all i want to do is just to stay at home
don't know why I'm so affected also

whatever it is, I'm going to try to occupy my mind with other things
if you want to stop it
then just let it die off alright
it's definitely gonna take some time
2 weeks from now
it will get better
for sure
FULL STOP!

goodnight everybody.

this decision making is never an easy one
it took me like 2 weeks to think through carefully
in the end, i made the choice of giving up
i know it's a little bit foolish
but i cant promise things will turn out well even if i choose not to
from time to time when i look back at the hard work that i've put in,
others training so hard for competition during this season period,
i cant help but feel very depressed and upset
there's is nothing i can do about it
because i have to be responsible for my decision
if you were to ask me if i regret choosing to opt out, i will tell you yes i do. and if i were to be given another chance to choose, i will continue to stay on. well, i guess it's already FAR too late to say such things or even think about the impossible

i have been thinking alot lately
perhaps that's why i've been down these few days
alot of reflections done, but i still cant get the answers

why is it that for people who sacrifice alot, they always dont get back what they deserve?
why is it that for people who offers help to others willingly always end up having no one in the end?
why is it that when you treat people nicely, there are still people who are nasty to you?
why is it that after so much effort and hard work trying to make things work out, it always turns out otherwise?
i really have no idea why why why and why.
life is hard, this i have to agree.
being a good person is just so difficult. i tried very hard to be one, but i think i failed. people just dont appreciate you for your efforts and everything you do.

i never fail to help you whenever you propose for one.
in fact, i tried my very best to get the tasks done for you.
without even thinking of saving my face.
you ever told me that if i need help, you'll be more than willing to help me. but when i need the strength to pull me through the tough times, where are you?

to me, just a simple little msg is enough to make my day.
at least i know i have someone to rely on and to fall back on.
just a little task that will only take up 5 mins of your time and you cant even do it. i'm really lost for words. you're just too insensitive.

i know you wont be reading this, i just want to put down how i feel.
maybe by doing this, i will be able to feel much better. i hope!
alright, it's getting late now and i've gort training tmr.
time to sleep. GOODNIGHT world!

IT HAS BEEN A LOUSY WEEK FOR ME!

updates updates, hahaha!
my weekend started as early as last thursday!
the holiday mood is just there you see

met the favourites for mahjong session at jov's place on thurs
yes, i lost money again. i have no luck at his place. like always one leh! ):

the next day was met up with tb07 classmates
another happening session which i enjoyed alot
before the rest could finish their food, i had rush off to the airport!
was there to send my dearest girlfriend jialing and my hr-mate huier off
it's kinda sad, but yea i hope things will go well for them.
all the best alright! see you girls next year!
after that i rushed again to meet my favourites for mahjong
damn, i think i'm addicted already. hahaha!
played through the night without any sleep or nap.
the feeling is just so shiok!
i'm like really making full use of the weekend to the max! lol.

then come sat, wanted to go for training.
but i was tired and feel that its no point going
since i have no energy i also dont want to waste my time going down
had brunch with them and i headed home to bathe and change for JB
birthday dinner for grandparents that is
another round of happenings
da da da da da, da da da da da
then i came back at ard 11 and home sweet home
hahaha.

sunday was rest day at home
was totally too tired to go anywhere
i spent most of my time sleeping

Today is tuesday, time really fly past very fast!
internship is coming to one month already
at the back of my mind there is something nagging me
yes, report! so sickening can.
though it's just a 3% one, it takes time to develop
i made empty promises to myself again
told myself to start on it today, but i didnt. ):
okay, TMR i MUST start. hahaha.
Cant wait for friday to come, our hr dinner again!
seeing them is really wide grins! :D

work today is crazy to the max
my task for the whole day is just filing and checking
damn angry leh, so many files you know!
okay, i know this is part of the learning process
but i really cant take it
feel as if i've done alot today
guess what?!
its not even half yet
my god, i'm going to suffer tmr
tsk tsk tsk ):

very fast is mid week already
weekend is coming, cant wait! hahaha
i'm tired now, going to turn in soon
MAHJONG MAHJONG MAHJONG tmrrrr! yesss. :D
see you all tmr favourites!

results are out today
everyone did well i guess
though the results were not up to my expectation
it's still acceptable i think, haha!

training was alright today
i do feel improvement
which i a good sign. (:

weekend's gonna be packed
with my TB07 dinner
with sending off my friends who's going for oiap
with grandparent's birthday dinner at m'sia
COOL!

okay, i'm not say very tired today
dont know why
haha, maybe cos i slept for 12 hrs straight the day before ytd. LOL!
boring is the word to describe working life
tsktsktsk

i'm feeling absolutely super shiok now! hahaha.
i slept for 12 hours. like finally a good good sleep.
tmr is trial already but my hands are aching now
how now brow cow, ahhhhhh!

anyway, tmr is also the release of results
i am lack of the confidence this semester
partly is because of those stupid IS modules
i know i did not work hard enough for the semester
i have no eyes to see my results tmr! ):
going to turn off the sms mode in npal so that i wont get the results unexpectedly. good idea yea!

OKAY! haven been updating for awhile.
basically, my life just evolves around work, training and meet ups
still cant really adapt to the working life
and i dont like to wake up so early in the morning! ):
other than that, i think attachment is still a-okay!
i dont want to say much about work, because i feel that there's nothing much to talk about

this week had been a busy one
everyday was meet ups with different group of ppl after work
i guess this is what helps to make my life more meaningful despite the boring office work. HAHA.

And ytd was meet up with the HR family
we talk, caught up with one another and had a good laughing session!
celebrated shiqin's birthday too though it's many days in advance, haha.
after dinner, we went to drink at balcony
had pretty good time together
whatever it is, the company just makes that night a wonderful one!
thanks for the great company. (:

this morning's weather is like, oh so shiok you know!
its finally weekend and i know deserve to sleep more
but because of training, i sacrificed!
practically dragged myself out of the bed
after training i rushed home to bathe and change
then head down to suntec to meet the trackers again
watched Babylon AD, not too bad i guess
afterall, its a free ticket and we should all appreciate lar!
well, the feeling is kinda different now when i hang out with the trackers
perhaps its a whole new group of ppl, not really used to it. haha!

Alrighty, i'm home now feeling super duper tired.
did i mention i gort sun-burnt today?!
oh my god! my face is as red as a tomato now can.
and the shade of my hands are very obvious too!
ahhhhhhhhh. nvm, it will get better soon. i hope. hahaha!
i'm so going to nua my day off at home tmr.
i really need the rest to get ready for a brand new week!

i have this very weird feeling inside me
i cant tell exactly how i am feeling too
it's just like weird kind of weird
unexplainable
tsk tsk tsk

first day of attachment today
nothing much but just orientation
recieved a text in the morning
from someone whom i nv thought was so nice
hahaha, but i guess i've mis-judged her!

anyway, first day of work was alright
just hate the long journey to work
and the squeezing with people

i'm very tired now. yawn.
happy moment never seems to last!
but i'm still glad it lasted for a few days! ((: